Days like these, I dread the most. Those days where you wake up hoping to accomplish something great but lack belief within yourself and your capabilities. The days where you put in countless hours of work but still for some reason just doesn’t seem like your work is great or even good to share with the world.

Then as if that wasn’t enough you began to start comparing your work to others. The thought that originated as just one negative thought seemed to have become cancerous, finding a way to spread into hundreds of doubts now clouding your mind. You slowly began to believe these small lies within your head, well maybe you’re not that good, just give up now. Leaving your mind to race like a hamster on a wheel.

You even try to sleep it off hoping when you wake up you will have a new belief of it all. But the doubts only wait outside of your bed only to return when you awake.

I think the worse part about it all, is that those motivational videos and sermons that once made you so motivated to accomplish anything now seems to lack true effect on you.

These internal lies won’t seem to disappear no matter how hard you try.

You see that, LIES. How am I able to call it out on paper but can’t seem to sub consciously understand that what these thoughts are… are just, lies.

So I sit and ask myself, what to do? Trying to figure out ways to make disbelief of everything they have told me. But nothing seems to work.

JUST STOP! I continue to cry out at night! How do I make these lies stop?

Well once I solve it, I’ll share with you all.